What the …

She is having fever. And he can sleep so well and snore while I have to stay awake to look after her.

Wtf! I am working tomorrow while he is not! I bet he will be playing computer games all day n night. Talented but useless.

Red alert

I just got my result for my sept09′s semester and i almost fail one subject, My heart hurt se bad when i saw “marginal failure” at first i tought i failed but Thank God, i passes but really at the edge for failing. I almost cry and felt angry to myself because i know i could do better than that if i make the time to study. I think God is sending his signal to me, to stop laid back and start strive for what i aimed for. I wouldnt want to have my degree with poor results, NO WAY!

Now i change my strategy, i will read my module everyday regardless of how many pages i can do or even if i can digest it well or not.

Next semester i will take blending mode study which mean i will have to attend classes. Will see if this help.

I have 3 papers this sem, 2 papers i went for mid term test last 2 weeks but unfortunately the other paper i will have to struggle more cuz i didnt submit the assignment, that probably 40% gone already. Gosh i need to score and do all out cuz i only 60% to hope for!

Annoyed Day

I guess my bloody red girlfriend is going to make her once a month visit again.

I am alittle bit annoyed by someone that constanly use my coffee cup and I end up skipping my morning coffee!

Another one, is my own subordinate… Too depending on me and dont even use the facility i gave them. At times i cant really trust her. I believe she is a culprit!

Weird

I had the weirdest dream this morning. First a twin baby died and the out of no where another twin died again, this time the twin are teenage girls.

Soon after that, i was in a bus with a group of people, we arrive at one beach and met with Labab’s mum and his bro who very much look like him only he is bigger.

At the beach, it was like something going on… They have food stalls, stage and an emcee.

What is the meaning of my dream?

Rough week again

Life had a tough moments again last week and this week, life has been always ‘not easy’ but the last week it has been very tiring.

I feel like to cry to die and felt so weak!

Dear God, please give me strenght to fo through this and guide me….

Tired but not really

I had an awesome weekend and I see something good coming in future. Really hope so and about to close 2 deals. Crossing my fingers hope Everything goes smoothly.

After so long didn’t party, last Friday I had a little fun night at my preferred club. I felt fresh for a while.

Lies

Yesterday while in the car heading home after shooting, me and hubby had a little chat about our kids. I told him about what Damien feels about him. I hope he take that into account and start to make a mend. I told him to give more balance and try not to pamper our daughter too much, as I don’t want her to be spoiled.

Today, our little daughter hid her school uniform and hubby couldn’t find it so he ask for my help, he said he feels something fishy. So I did, and I fond it at the end corner of our wardrobe. I knew she hid it and it just happened cuz her uniform isn’t crampple yet.

I was furious and told her to stop lying, then she started to cry. Hubby was already very disappointed and I saw he shed a tears. I know how he felt. He really is disappointed. Just last night I told him to pay more attention to our son while I will try to talk to our daughter and make her understand that her new “thingy” about lying is not a good thing, and it’s happen again today added with something new “do whatever it takes to get what she wants”. I think this seriously, she is getting too advance with these stuffs now and I’ve got to find a way to make her understand that it is not a good thing.

Figuring out what would the best way to make her understand.

This is what I found in wikipedia:

A lie (also called prevarication, falsehood, “Porky”) is a type of deception in the form of an untruthful statement, especially with the intention to deceive others, often with the further intention to maintain a secret or reputation, protect someone’s feelings or to avoid a punishmentor repercussion for one’s actions. To lie is to state something that one knows to be false or that one does not honestly believe to be true with the intention that a person will take it for the truth. Aliar is a person who is lying, who has previously lied, or who tends by nature to lie repeatedly – even when not necessary.

Lying is typically used to refer to deceptions in oral or written communication. Other forms ofdeception, such as disguises or forgeries, are generally not considered lies, though the underlying intent may be the same. However, even a true statement can be used to deceive. In this situation, it is the intent of being overall untruthful rather than the truthfulness of any individual statement that is considered the lie.

Should I punish her? What punishment should be best for her? She is only nine.

BFF

Does this term really exist? Or never for me? When I was in my primary school, I had a bestfriend… a boy of my age too. He was the only son, the only child in-fact. He has a great parent and they were like my family too, they treated me as if I am their daughter too. We were so close and even some of his friend thought that we were dating; yea at that very young age. Our friendship could have been until now but we lost contact when his father was very ill, he and his mom had to move back to their homeland to get a proper treatment for his dad, they were suppose to come back once his dad recover but he didn’t make it.

From that day, I knew that we won’t be able to see each other that often anymore, won’t be able to play every afternoon together, no more going for tuition classes together, no more collecting toy and keeping them all together underneath the big huge study table.

A few weeks after his dad funeral, he and his mom came back to settle stuffs and also to say goodbye to friends. I was crying so hard, didn’t talk to him and that’s what I regretted the most, cause; I didn’t get his address nor contact number to stay in-touch.

After he left, I followed my dad and continue my study at the neighbouring state. My family knows I am still missing him… So they let me be with my dad studying far away from my mum.

2 years studying away, at the end, I came back to my mum place. I met another close friend, until now we are still goodfriend but not as close as before as she is not nearby. I still miss him.

Looking back, making me missing him more…. when I look at now, I don’t any bestfriend anymore.

When I see others, hanging out with their BFFs, having fun and great times with their BFFs, I wish I had mine near me.

Sad isn’t…… It’s almost 12, another forty-minutes, it’s gonna be the 3rd day of February. This mean my nephew will be 3-days old. Yay!

I published this post already, then I realise something…. that I am missing something, that I have someone who always with me; he is my bestfriend; not a very good listener but he listen. But… there is something that we need to work on; having good times together, I suppose we both too stress out with out work, our business & our family and somehow; forgetten to have a little more fun.

he,

is,

the .l.O.V.e. of my life… my hubby!

exclusive photo-shoot with the newborn

in my earlier post,

I mentioned that we have just welcomed a newborn baby boy,

so being a photographer myself….

of course I will have an exclusive photo-shoot for him.

It’s will be documented in a dedicated album for sure.

Sketching the photo-shoot now.
Till then!

newest family member has arrived today

welcoming the newest member in my family…..

i am so happy for my sister…. finally she have a soldier in her family.

cant wait for them to be back here,

i wanna hold him

i was give him my gentle kiss

i wanna give him my gentle hug

and my every love…

till then….